I was told Love yourself! I thought, what?

I was told Love Yourself, I thought what?

I didn’t think loving myself was possible. It felt too foreign. I was raised to love everyone else. When someone said it to me for the first time, I thought it strange. Like pass if off as they never said it, strange.

It wasn’t long after my ex-husband beat me up. I went to therapy, and the concept of self-love felt foreign.

I threw myself into self-improvement, devouring books and diving into spiritual work. Over time, I began catching glimpses of self-love and started practicing it. So, I thought.

But it was still surface-level.

I followed the patterns of my spiritual circles: saying no, meditating, growing, connecting to a higher power, and doing the rituals. I thought that was self-love.

But then, I heard, “Deeper.”

I went back to therapy, doing more work on myself. Letting things go, understanding myself, loving learning about myself. I thought that was it.

No, I heard again. Go deeper!

I found other therapists, exploring different healing modalities. Letting go more and more, understanding myself and others better, and learning about my brain and nervous system.